(note on writing.. I am wanting to write more spontaneously about my process so that I can share the process more easily. I usually find that the writing makes more sense than if it is over-thought.. so please see the text.. in that sense… ideas evolving)
Notes on an asymmetric poem the idea what is the idea behind this what do I want from the words that they are not giving me I am trying to evolve new meanings but not using my imagination or my rational mind I am trying to do it using approaches that are in excess in the natural world the natural world what is that… it is anything out there that is evident.. that can be seen by us perceived by us anything that has persisted long enough to be seen evolved through ages or transiently popped into view it could do that because it persisted it had an aspect of The Return about it.. whatever it was a thing that returned or an event that repeated when things return they can be acted upon by whatever natural / force process is available.. when events repeat… the – what the events are – things interacting with other things are acted upon by available forces… a static poem can become a dynamic thing if it repeats and is acted upon by some process.. so here the poem had its meaning.. what it was trying to say… changed by making words repeats.. and making symbols truncate to something else.. noise or evocative juxtaposition.
In the making of my!machine I feel like I am doing what I am doing no more no less
when I look at my!machine.. I see the regular wheel turn.. I see the stochastic noise.. arms flailing.. it generates.. and I look at myself.. arm flailing.. trying to describe my!machine.. am I really controlling that flail.. or is it going to flail.. whether I like it or not.. that is what my machine and my!machine just do..
I started off thinking
And maybe still do.. that this machine has no function..
While trying to get to the root of what I am interested in.. I thought what it must be is change…. Change is at the heart of all phenomena… whether it is the slow steady time scale of geology and evolution. Or whether it is the rapid time scale of these words darting across the face of my computer.. all of this inexorably changes the world we live in.. even the passage of time… time is only the change of an aspect of an event… if nothing changes relative to something else there is no time… My first love… how forms have evolved over the course of evolution is the change that I am fascinated by… what lies beneath these changes…? Are there underlying formulae or processes… which are encoded in the universal architecture that bring about inevitable forms… what lies at the heart of Change? and can I build this process in my lab studio…?